I got engaged to a girl couple of months back. We both are in mid twenties. I live and work abroad and she lives in India. I'm sort of in a fix these days, having horrid times personally. I got to know this girl through matrimony. We exchanged mails initially, things looked good but they were sort pushing me to come down to see their daughter and worse, they were asking me to give my decision. I denied initially and told them that my decision will be only after meeting them personally. After few months of calls and skype back and forth..I got buckled under pressure ( read love) and they booked engagement hall even before I went to India. Everything went according to the scriptt.
I'm still feel embarrassed the way I handled all this. She is a nice girl, I don't see her lying about anything but then off late her lack of understanding about the world is giving me sleepless nights. She seems to have mugged up all her life to get a degree. I agreed to go ahead even though she is a bit fat ( hence healthy, no offense) and considerably shorter than me. She hid her body while skyping but I knew about it. I expected her to be a bit intelligent. I'm more or less convinced that we aren't compatible. I may not give her the love she deserves. I haven't told anyone about this, eating up all by myself.
One stupid mistake I made was to register our marriage to make visa processing easier. I printed a fake card, showed engagement photos as marriage photos and registered the marriage under hindu marriage act 1955, both our parents were present when this happened.
First of all i'm in a dilemma to get out of it or not. Second of all, if I do decide end this I'm a legally married ?! Is it possible to prove it as fake as marriage never really happened! Can we just throw off the certificates if we both agree to call off ?