I don't think anyone here understood the sensitivity of the matter. It is not this simple, its much more complicated. My father has broken my soul, its like i am living in a constate state of some damage or emptiness inside me. He has treated me in an inhuman way, tried to control me by threatening me and using fear of physical assault. He never clearly expressed when and why he gets angry, threatens me of throwing me out of home at random, constantly belittling, shaming me for no reason at all, making me believe that I am worthless and so is my life. He also fights with my mother almost daily, has hit her in front of me and my brother. It seems like he has some untreated mental illness which he is suffering because he regularly visits a psychiatrist. I have lived in a state of constant fear and unhappiness, trying to please him as far as possible due to his fear, have gone through suicidal thoughts and mental instability myself. That is why I am looking for legal help.